Foreword

Hi, everyone. 
Well, this is me with some stories that I rarely spoken to anyone. Thus, most of them don't know what's going on with my life and how I can be the person like I am now. I just thinking that I should write some of my stories because sometimes they put a pressure on me and sometimes I just feel like I can't hold it any longer. Although some people already knew it and sometimes they listen when I get problems, I'm still thinking that I should write it because they can't really feel what I feel since they never experience what I've had and also because I'm tired of crying when I tried to tell this story to other people. I also admit that all of these life incidents change me, in a way of judging people, communicating with others, feeling my surroundings, and facing and solving problems. And at last, I want to apologize to the people, especially my close friends, for not telling this stories for some reasons -which I'm not so sure what it is- and because I'm not proud of this story of my life. And also an apology for people that I gave such a burden and are bothered for what I've done. You all are my special people and take a special place in my heart... that actually I can't be this strong now if you all are not there with me. I'm also very sorry if my words here are a little bit harsh or offending or insulting for people I mention in the story.

This is a very true story of my life. I tell you this as honest as I can, I won't exaggerate it at all. I hope my story will let you realize that maybe your problems are not complicated enough to be complained. Or maybe, you can just learn something from what I've experienced.